Hardened Yet Compassionate

Once perceived dreadful, fraught with distress and no apparent escape, the situation now proved instructive and fortifying.The moment of utter despair, molded against our will; that unsettling removal of comforting familiarity. Would that this were not necessary!And yet, the tempestuous times of life have formed a hardened exterior. Though more importantly, a compassionate interior.

Work, Eat, Sleep… Repeat

Another day, the same as the last; trying to reach the end before the next day begins.And so the cycle repeats, the promise of a new day and a new start crushed by the regrets of yesterday and worries about tomorrow.Or could it be, that the repetitive drudgery of all days merging into one has …

Two Evil Companions

It has been quite some time since I was last tarnished by Self-harm's presence and wheedling tones. You have not visited me for quite a while; instead, your companion Suicide was here.He may be stronger and more forceful, yet you are more persuasive, sweet nectar dripping from your rosy lips, many falling foul of your …

My Light Grows Weaker

The calm surface belies the troubled waters beneath, roiling and frenzy masked by serenity. At times the waters are truly still, with crystalline beauty that attracts the light. But these moments grow ever fewer.For it is not only light that is attracted to the waters. Indeed, darkness relishes the churning, the agitation, feeding on turmoil …

Dust and Ashes

Surrounded by wasted land, arid and absent of life, the decay reaching far into the distance. Dry earth crumbling with the lightest touch; despair emanating from the very soil. The rocky remnants of majestic waterfalls and charred tree stumps are a shadow of their former beauty, a reminder of days past.Can anything beautiful still grow …

Mindless Pig Swill

Do you hear me, knocking on the door? Do you see me waving, desperate for your attention? You consider me important, the most valued part, yet so often I feel neglected. Food for your stomach, exercise for your muscles, but what about me, the control centre, your brain? Do you think I enjoy sitting through …

Hope Is Sinking

Lower and lower, my hope sinks into the depths. Zeal for life is waning; to live is to feel despair. Each day grows worse, sapping my strength and forcing me ever closer to the ground. When once I would cling to a brighter future, my dreams are now tarnished by a dread of what is …

I’m Just Fine

Deeper and deeper I sink, into this pit of my own making. My heart was at last open to love and be loved, I allowed people in, only for the tunnel to cave in. Had I closed myself off, there would have been no emotional chasm into which I could fall. Far easier it would …

Intoxicated

Today, I'm not going to think about you; I won't hope for a message from you. For so long you've had a hold on my heart, bewitched me from that first conversation. How did you do it? Each new person I meet, each attempt at something new, these are overshadowed by memories and longing for …